Has it really been a year?!

I can't believe that we celebrated our baby's first birthday on Saturday. Can it be possible that it's really been a year since she entered our world? Amazing....
She has grown so much and is becoming so independent. When did that happen? It seems like yesterday Shawn and I were talking about trying to have a second baby....like only yesterday when we saw those 2 little lines for the first time. You know, we found out I was pregnant with Reagan six days after Keira's 1st birthday. I can't imagine 4 days from now finding out that I was pregnant. I think our family feels complete now, with our 2 precious daughters. God has truly blessed us.

I think back to last year...the panic when Reagan failed her NST...the fear I felt as I lie on the hospital table while the doctor did yet another ultrasound...the anxiety as I waited for my doctor to decide what to do...the way the pain medicine hit me and how nauseous I felt...the ride back to the operating room...the look on Shawn's face when Reagan was born. The absolute best part about that day was when I heard my sweet baby cry and they placed her in my arms for the first time. I knew then that it would all be ok.

Since then, I've toyed with the idea of what it would be like to have a 3rd baby. I think about what a rollercoaster ride the births of our daughters were. I know with absolute certainty that God had His hand on our babies and on me during my pregnancies...and it terrifies me to think about how things *might've* been if not for His grace. I almost think it would be too risky to try it again....that we should be grateful for the amazing gifts we have been given. And I am eternally grateful! What a wonderful family I have!